Goals? Yeah, that's rich.

Okay this isn't specifically for anyone else to read, I just decided to put it here because this way it'll be saved somewhere I know I can find it.

Just had a brief conversation with a friend, about what I should do in terms of dropping out or staying in college. I've had this conversation with friends I trust, but this one told me to do something: set myself a goal.

Goals like what?:

Revise for C3 and F583

Unfreeze gym membership on 16th January

Actually go to band/acoustic practice with Mike and Saif

Miss my retake, there's just no point

Skip lessons which may include a test for now

Drop out of college

Talk to those two girls you like

Find self

Find motivation

Be happy

In all of my days I've never been a chaser, educationally and relationship wise. Now I feel like I have to chase down some chick I see potential in. Otherwise when or if true love does find me again I'll still have no experience, and maybe I'll still be caught within the fucked up love I was in once upon a time. With every girl I've ever had some sort of thing with, it was them who had done the chasing, and sometimes I didn't even notice it. Now that I've realised that, it's like I don't expect it to happen any more. I hate chasing, because I give up too easily, I get impatient quickly.

This just wont work. Who knows.

Elijah